Personal Disability; How My Children Helped Me Overcome It
I still remember that day vividly. At the middle school cafeteria, a boy named Jason sat across from where I was. I must have done something that annoyed him. The only thing I remember him doing is shouting out to the class that he was better off that he does not stutter. Those things that hurt us cannot be repressed. Some psyches can try and block out these painful memories, but there will still be parts of the memory that remain embedded in your mind. Several years later, I met Jason at a family restaurant and he was kind. He was all grown and so was I.
It is a fact that I do stutter. However, I have found a way that I can manage it after extensive speech therapy. In this therapy, I had an in-ear device that managed my speaking pace. However, carrying out a normal conversation is still a struggle. When my daughter was growing, I had to read every book for her at a snail’s pace. I thought that by doing this, I could fool her into thinking that I was fluent. Instead of holding a conversation with here, I would sing for her. There was an incident that forced me face the fear to speak, or I would have just continued with this. As I was in the bathroom getting ready, I heard a tumble. At the bottom of the stairs, she was laying on her side. She just made a little whimper and she seemed that she could still fully control her limbs. As I was holding her, I felt my hand turn sticky at the back of her head.
I had never called the doctor by myself. The booking of appointments was done by my husband or I would do it online. But it was during the day on a weekday and I could not reach my husband. Though I was nervous, I just took the phone to call the doctor. I did not think about it too much and I did not have time to rehearse.
This was the first step and I had taken it alone. According to experts, the biggest step in making a significant difference is becoming courageous enough to try. I tried to be clear as possible to explain the incident to the office manager when the answered the phone call. She understood and assured me that is was not a major injury. After following her instructions, my daughter healed. I then decided that I would face this condition and avoided skipping any areas when reading books to my daughters. With each passing day, this situation has become easier to face.